Hi guys (remember, NYer here, haha). So, let's see; it's 2022, and I haven't posted an update in...how long? I've had some pretty terrible things happen. I want to start with a really awesome thing first; I don't believe I've mentioned it. Nothing this cool occurred in a long time before this, and nothing this cool since...
December 15, 2018 Gas Monkey Bar N' Grill, Dallas, TX
Stabbing
Westward reunited! They’d been on tours
for, I think, a year and a half. We
missed a show March 2017, Houston, I think.
So, in September-when I heard about this one-my mind was already
made. We had to go. Jason’s caregiver went with us to Odessa, so,
when he told her about this, she was like, “Oh, those guys we saw in
Odessa?” LOL. She was on board, but driving to Dallas is
kind of a task, since I don’t live there now, so I tried finding a friend or
caregiver of mine to go. Several people
said yes, then no, so it was frustrating.
Finally, I found somebody who said she’d go and didn’t change her
mind. I was so happy.
But it
turned out she just wanted an excuse to get drunk and cheat on her bf; damn. Jason’s helper did almost everything for him
and me L
So,
starting in October, I asked family and friends if they wanted to meet for
lunch, since I’m hardly in Dallas anymore.
I was sad that, of everybody I asked, only one person, a sister I hadn’t
seen in 20 years, met us, but I was so happy she came!
Okay,
I bet you’re wondering when this segment’s gonna get good. In case you didn’t know, it was the Darkest Days 20th anniversary
tour, so, guess what, I wore that white DD T-shirt. Yes, the one I (might have) hit Christopher Hall
with twenty years ago, lol. We had no
idea the concert was held outside. I
don’t know, maybe the night’s low was 40 degrees. I was fucking freezing, but I had to show
everybody my shirt, even after the first band played, and Jason bought me a
hoodie and put his on, I just held mine.
We
watched the second band-most of it, but we went back to the merch table to see
if any member of SW was there. I was on
a mission; I brought Little Debbie provisions for them, but also…
Who
knows I’m an author? Well, I am. I hope a good one. I’d thought to bring a signed copy of my
novel and give it to Chris-after all, I have so many meaningful things he’s
signed for me. Of course I wrote a
little something, too. Everybody gets
their own personal message.
(BTW,
how are you liking the SW song title puns?
Have you noticed them?)
So,
sparing random details, Christopher stood at the table, but I faced a different
direction, talking to Jason. He looked
over and said, “There’s Chris.” I think
I did a double-take. But Jason
persisted, “Go over there.” (Can you
tell I’m a writer, lol.)
I
walked the whole, what, six feet but stood there like a weirdo. I urged myself, Joey, cut it out and say hi. He
was talking to somebody, but who wouldn’t notice a weirdo just standing still
and eyeing you, right, so he came over, said hi, and I got a hug. He asked if I wanted to get a picture. Say
yes, crazy lady, I was thinking. I
said yes, and he got some guy to take a few.
I forgot if he got one with Jason first, or if I gave him my stuff
first. However, when I did, I was so
nervous! Why? I said I had stuff in a bag behind my chair
for him. He seemed to like the
treats. Then, I told him I wrote that
book and signed it for him, since I have tons of signed stuff from him. I said I heard that he likes fantasy stories,
so I hope he likes mine, but “you can tell me if you don’t.” LOL, I hope he likes it. (Hey-much later-my mind just wandered back
there. I’m not purposely adding stuff
that simply wasn’t there, but I think he said I look beautiful. I love when men do that.)
I
can’t remember what happened next, but, oh, Christopher signed my awesome, old
shirt. I think they were about to go on,
so we wedged our way as close as possible.
There were two guys in front of me, and Jason sat behind me. The dudes didn’t want to move, but I told
myself to just calm down-Chris obviously knew I was there.
But I
was worried-what if I couldn’t see through those guys?
No
problem.
The
band took their places, and Chris spotted me, just behind the dudes. I was happy he already found me, but…
But
right before they started playing, sweet Christopher took the mic and said,
“Everybody, take care of Joey!” Nobody
could know how important he made me feel!
When somebody goes to see SW, the band makes it seem like they came to
see us, but I felt so special, so, insanely happy! Then, a few seconds later, they started
“Darkest Days.”
A super
awesome lady behind me offered to take pics and stuff using my camera; she saw
I couldn’t get a good angle. She asked
if I was the person Chris referred to. I
was ecstatic to say yes.
Every
now and then, Chris crouched or turned or something to see me through those
dudes-I thought that was so awesome. (And-Oct
2019-I have the video somebody put on youtube to prove it.) But, you know what? I don’t know how to say this-what emotion is
strong enough. I’ve never been to a
concert where everybody sings every word of every song. It was insane! Amazing!
I know that isn’t enough, but I can’t think of another word right
now. We were all rocking out; all united. I’m sure that also made SW feel important and
loved. I was beyond happy to be there!

Sometimes,
the things other people think are small are so meaningful and gigantic to
me. Afterwards, we hung out. I got to meet Walter! LOL, finally, right? He’s so awesome and nice, and I told him I
went to the show twenty years ago <3
We met Bobby again. We first met
him in 2004, when Orgy came to Odessa.
Come to think of it, it was also a cold night. We met the members of Orgy, and I got a hug
from Jay and Bobby. Bobby said, “You
look absolutely frozen. If I had a
jacket, I’d give it to you.”
LOL,
do I have a thing for freezing to
near death at great concerts or something?
Anyway,
we got a pic with Walter and Bobby-I think Marcus took it, which is sad he
wasn’t in it. Then we wandered to the
front of the stage. Christopher was
cleaning up stuff but took a break to say hi again. AND, J and I realized we forgot something
important. We brought something else for
him. Hehe, I got another hug, btw, and
we gave him one of our Two Feet Below shirts (we hoped the size we had on hand
would fit him).
If
you’re unfamiliar, Two Feet Below is our venture. We started it in 2018, writing blogs about
everything, but how they pertain to or impact us as a disabled couple. As a side note-or, maybe, it’s the
point-whenever Jason and I go to big events, like tattoo conventions, concerts,
even out to eat, not only are we the only wheelchair bound pair, but we’ll look
around and mmaayybbe find two more individuals scattered around. Our mission is to unite all people-abled or
disabled-through our experiences. We love
when people ask about our disabilities, however, we’ve realized, from some
questions, people have no idea what cerebral palsy is or the many types of cp,
or about spina bifida, or artificial shunts, or anything. Yeah, we need more physical help than you
might need, but, really, everybody needs help with something.
In
2019, we started sharing our experiences with youtube, yay.
But
anyway, this concert was about three weeks before we took to youtube, but we
told Christopher about TFB, and he asked if they could help in any way. Cool.
Of
course, eventually, we had to say bye. That
was the best concert of my life!
I need
to add this, because this is crazy phenomenal.
I joined a group on fb for ultimate SW/TD fans in Aug 2019. Yes, we sure are, btw. I’ve made many friends. In Oct, a friend and I chatted about this
past concert. I’d seen on fb she went,
though she lives in NY, but, of course, we didn’t know each other yet to hang
out together. I asked if she’d seen me
at some point. One thing led to another,
and she shared a pic she coincidentally took.
That picture is such a beautiful gift and made me so happy, you have no
idea-it is Christopher, lying on the stage, talking with J and me and holding
our TFB shirt. She said Chris’ desire to
connect, on a personal level, with somebody was very touching, and that’s why
she snapped the shot. I totally agree!
What
else can I say? I’m still overwhelmed
with joy and, I don’t even have the correct words, thinking about all
this. I hope I can add more SW
amazingness to this.
Always on my mind and in my heart.